As most of you know, my cat, Cuddles, hasnt been doing too well. While we were away in Massachusetts, she took a turn for the worst, started losing more weight, stopped eating, drinking, and pretty much never moved from where she would sleep. I knew the day would come, but you never really understand how hard it actually is to say good bye.
Yesterday, June 14, 2008, we made the decision to put her to rest. She was near liver failure again, it would be the second time in 7 years, her kidneys were shutting down and she was jaundice, she had two lumps on the back of her neck that appeared out of no where and were most likely cancer and her liver was nearly four times the size it should have been. We didnt know if she was in pain, but it had been nearly 8 days since she had last eaten. It wasnt fair any longer to let her suffer. She wasnt eating enough to stay alive much longer. A few weeks ago we made the choice to give her a steroid shot, it worked for only about two weeks instead of the 6 it was suppose to.
This was one of the hardest decisions i have had to make, along with my mom. You never really know if you are doing the right thing... and you always second guess your decision. I know she is much happier now and no longer suffering... and hopefully in heaven she has found her other sister Meeka, who pasted away when i was in high school. It was really hard to say good bye... and to watch her slip away... but i know that it was the right decision...
I miss her.... soooooo much.. more than words could describe.. and i will always love her and there will always be a place in my heart for her.. she has been in our lives for 14 wonderful years and that is very precious to all of us... Everyday is still difficult to get through and i still have issues walking into my parents room where she was pretty much isolated for 6 weeks..and when i look at her pictures i still cry, but its only been a little more than 24 hours.. She was part of our family, its like losing a sister or a child... some of you may not understand.. but thats ok... because she meant the world to us.. and thats what matters..
R.I.P. Cudsybear (Cuddles)
We Will Love You Forever And Remember You For Always
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