A bit behind..

I've been feeling a bit behind in life lately.. almost like I cant quite keep up or something. I havent been able to get my new photos up, i havent been able to see or talk to the people that i really want to get in touch with, and it seems like the house is just a constant mess, lol.. well maybe its just that ive had some way more important things to do, like going swimming with the little on in his new pool and I have also been looking for a part time job, hopefully at the local school district, at this time they arent hiring, but they did tell me to call back at the end of summer :D, im keeping my fingers crossed. I think having a part time job will be good for both Xander and I. This past week has been kinda rough. I've been dealing with a lot of things.. nothing too major, but some stuff that I just dont like.. and I dont think the internet is the place to be advertising, lol.. sorry :D hee hee... I've also been feeling like I depend on lance for way too much.. he keeps reassuring me that i dont.. but being as I have been so independant for the past few years.. its kind of hard to get out of that rut.. im trying though, lol.. and with him by myside reassuring me.. im sure i will get over it.. its just me being me!!! Lance's job is going really great.. The work is a piece of cake.. its just being gone at night that has been hard for both of us to get use to.. but hey its a job... and it leaves me open to work some part time hours somewhere... its been nearly four years since i have had a job... it was kind of hard to work as a single mother while living with my parents who both work also, lol.. I do consider myself blessed for being able to be a stay home mom, I have loved and love every moment of being able to see my child grow and learn so much everyday.. its truly a blessing. well .. i guess.. thats all for now.. i think i just need a little venting time.. oh did i tell you all that Lance and I get to go to a Fall Out Boy concert at the end of the month, we are both super excited!!! Cant wait!!! thanks for listening guys! xo